My summer was interesting – things are moving in the right direction and I am starting to realise that being a super-mummy can be daunting. Yes, I said it, it totally can and I am not sure how many Mumpreneurs actually admit this, but it can be an entire disaster that spans across an entire week.
Now, you're probably thinking, how on earth did I survive this summer, although we still have a week or so left. Fact is – I didn't make it through very well.
Being a mother while pushing a business is an insane amount of pressure, you get caught between your desire to be the greatest mother alive and the business woman who wants to make sure that her business stays relevant and grows. I found myself feeling quite down on some days because I was so busy I just couldn't do that museum trip I had planned, so I had to leave it for a couple of days. You would think my children would have a complete nervous breakdown, but I was the one filled with guilt, while they played with each other and had a complete blast.
Children adapt to things very easily, but as the Mummy I am the one who falls to pieces if a plan doesn't go the way I wanted it to. I have had to pop different outings in where I can and get tucked in on the floor to build a car village at any possible moment. They absolutely love when I'm involved because they get to see me act a complete fool.
So, maybe if I was supposed to look at things from their point of view – they had a pretty cool summer, but from my point of view, it was a complete failure and then some
I am still processing that sometimes I will be stuck between a rock and a hard place, but I will always get to fit everything in, even if it's a little bit later than desired. Today has been all emails and back-end work for Just Offers, but I have managed to run to the park for a while and write this post with baby Ella sitting next to me. Oh, I am still working on getting her to take a bottle. I am not too sure what her mission is at the moment, but boy oh boy is she resilient!
As a parent, we will feel this kind of slumber sometimes, as hubby does even though he works outside of our home. So, if you're feeling shitty right now, don't beat yourself up too much. Just seeing their little faces on a daily basis and sneaking in some cuddles here and there and making sure I get a good night hug and kiss really makes my day. I doubt I have ever missed out on a goodnight kiss or the opportunity to just read one bedtime story. They are completely strict on their one story, but it's going to be 2 rule and I make sure I stick to that.
There will be things that you can do to make sure they know you're there regardless of how busy mummy or daddy is on the laptop. I guess, although it didn't go the way I had it planned, they had fun and that's the best bit. Now we are planning a little slumber party on the front room floor with as many pillows and cushions as possible – which I am completely excited about.
We are trying to make the most of it all as they are back to school in a few days - am I looking forward to the school run? Come back to me on that one haha!